ITBD poster presentation is tomorrow and we have not done anything yet. omg. i;m really hating myself. i really feel useless. i don't have the luxury somethings at home, especially when i need it really urgently. maybe this is retribution. got to hang on till i buy a new lappy. there was this one time when i really need to bring lappy to school to do term paper research in school. i tried asking my sis if i can borrow it. i was late because i spent about 20 minutes trying to wake her up and getting upset when she just shouted "NO" straight at my face. i was really angry, angry at myself and the selfish human. i just stood down and tears started to roll down my cheeks. i cried silently and when i was calm enough i left home.
sometimes i just don't understand myself. am i being too emotional or what? anyway at least i found a way to distress, even though it might not be the right way. like i said, i can't help it. really, i think i just need to stay out from home. the atmosphere can just make me mad, the irritating noises and the unnecessary arguments. really need to stay away.
oh and to wrap up, i finally managed to clear all my secondary books last night and a lot more stuff. it was really heartening to throw something that you have bought with the money that you have saved up for quite sometime, but somethings really have to go to make way for other stuffs.
p.s. i really want to paint my room (:
