Dreading to start on term paper. and I'm 5 days away to the deadline.

ITBD poster presentation is tomorrow and we have not done anything yet. omg. i;m really hating myself. i really feel useless. i don't have the luxury somethings at home, especially when i need it really urgently. maybe this is retribution. got to hang on till i buy a new lappy. there was this one time when i really need to bring lappy to school to do term paper research in school. i tried asking my sis if i can borrow it. i was late because i spent about 20 minutes trying to wake her up and getting upset when she just shouted "NO" straight at my face. i was really angry, angry at myself and the selfish human. i just stood down and tears started to roll down my cheeks. i cried silently and when i was calm enough i left home.

sometimes i just don't understand myself. am i being too emotional or what? anyway at least i found a way to distress, even though it might not be the right way. like i said, i can't help it. really, i think i just need to stay out from home. the atmosphere can just make me mad, the irritating noises and the unnecessary arguments. really need to stay away.

oh and to wrap up, i finally managed to clear all my secondary books last night and a lot more stuff. it was really heartening to throw something that you have bought with the money that you have saved up for quite sometime, but somethings really have to go to make way for other stuffs.

p.s. i really want to paint my room (:

its over!

yep. finally music and movement evaluation is finally over! yayy! no more lesson implementation after this till next semester i guess? hah.

so now projects flooded like nobody's business. aiyah. can't wait for everything to be over. and hopefully i don't get debarred for any module.

Am i the weird one, or is it the other humans?

woke up very early this morning, to make sure that i won't be late for ITBD tutorial again. just as i was about to leave house, i received a message that class is cancelled. wth la. waste my time only bangun pagi-pagi. so i stayed at home a little longer to watch Finding Nemo for the term paper. i was so tired that i almost fell asleep while watching it la.

so i eventually left at 11.40. the bus journey was rather peaceful until it reached amk ite bus stop. they were darn noisy la. although i listened to my song at full blast, i still can hear them cursing and swearing. horrible sia.

reached class, Ruth announced that lecture is cancelled idiot sia. waste my effort carrying the extra load of textbook only. today's AW was all about preparing us for the term paper. i still haven't really decided to do the topic on single parenting or the parenting styles. aiyah. I'm so fickle minded. which one should i do uh?

i don't know what's wrong with me today. i stumbled on words when i talk for like . that's not the only thing. as i was waiting for 88 at amk, the bus took super long to come, therefore the bus stop was rather crowded. i found a nice spot to stand, not blocking the way but still, idiots find ways to squeeze through even the smallest possible hole they could find. and due to that, i became some sort of a "punching bag". they walk, anyhow langgar only, got other bigger space dowan to use. i think either they are blind or i'm invisible.

alright. i have not touch any of my AW notes yet. tomorrow's test confirm die. omg

woke up early, left home very early this morning for attachment, i still don't know why i came damn early today. i think i reached there around 0815 when it starts at 0830. first time i reached that early sia. oh well, i almost got sent back home coz of my temperature - its not very high though, only 37.4. i was supposed to take my temperature 15 minutes later and it only went down by 0.2 degrees.

music and movement lesoon was *toot* la. the kids was like... forget i man. i think i really need to work out some way to make them listen to me before i get evaluated. hmph!

i'm having MAYC quiz tomorrow. lazy to study arh. i don't understand also, how to study sia. i know should have paid atention during lecture but she was reading straight from the slides. mind as well i read them at home sia. heck la.

lastly, we got this video, quite nice i think. qiwen made it if i'm not wrong. a sneak peek on our crew(: ENJOY!